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Saturday, January 30, 2010

Spiritual Sundays



This is definately not my typical SS post because I had myself a pity party, and I DO NOT LIKE pity parties! Why? because it is the UGLY FLESH in me trying to overrule the Spirit.

My 2nd flight was cancelled last night so I would not be joining my DH in Florida as we had planned nor would I be seeing my stepmom during the week while DH attended business meetings.

I was most upset about not having the alone time with him. We desperately needed it. This past year has been one loss after another. We celebrated our 19th wedding anniversary having lost his mother days before we were to go on a trip to a wonderful bed and breakfast and so that trip was cancelled and we had a house full of family here after her funeral. Within a few days of saying goodbye to her, the kids and I were on the road to Florida having received the diagnosis of Lung Cancer in my dad. As most of you know I spent most of the summer there apart from my DH and most of December as well. I still can't believe that we lost Daddy in such a short amount of time.

Now that things have calmed just a bit this trip came about and Brians job requested the spouses attend the weekend portion of the trip and were providing an airline ticket and hotel. Since I had been gone so much we had a family meeting and the kids were completely on board and supported me going and actually encouraged us being "away" together. On Wednesday morning (before he left for the airport) Brian and I came together and called upon the Lord surrendering this trip to HIM knowing the impending storm and possibility that I could not make it. After our prayer time we looked into each others eyes and just hugged for the longest time. It was a precious moment.

So if I surrendered this then why did I continue to press through when the doors were clearly closing? (flight cancelled, power went out)
because my flesh didn't want to accept the truth? obey? I was being selfish!

As I woke this morning and saw the beautiful snow and sat in quiet I repented for all of the selfishness and trying to make things happen. I cried to my FATHER for various things and you know what....HE met me, HE comforted me, HE forgave me and in HIS way HE gave me hope and strength. HE gave me HIS Word and spoke volumes.
HE led me to Isaiah 26... A song of Praise. Words like TRUST, PEACE, MIND STEADFAST ON THE FATHER!

I had allowed myself to have a pity party ~ to let my mind manipulate ways to get what I want ~ but the Lord in HIS infinite grace and mercy covered me with HIS Wings ( a blanket of snow) and waited until I cried out to HIM and brought me comfort and forgiveness. I layed down my thoughts and made them obey HIM and now as I go throughout this week I will keep my mind steadfast on HIM and because of this I will have perfect PEACE....HIS Word tells me so!


Thank you Father for your Love. For your Word. For meeting us even when we are pitiful and loving us despite ourselves.

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Love and blessings,

16 comments:

Andrea

My heart hurts for you. Thank you for your transparency. May GOD give you special time together another day or weekend that will far exceed what this weekend could have been. GOD's plans are always better than ours. HE has a blessings waiting for you.
Big hugs, love, and prayers,
andrea

Girly Muse

What a beautiful person you truly are, inside and out. You inspire me with how wholly you love God and walk with him. I'm so glad He met you there today and hope that your time with Him is precious this weekend.

Your time with your husband is coming! I just know it.

Love you!

RCUBEs

I like to think of it that when God closes one door, it's because He's opening a bigger door. Though we don't see nor feel it that way at that moment.

It's so inspiring for me to hear how quick you are to repent and always so exciting to know that He is always ready to forgive and shower us His love and grace. I pray that you will have that much needed "alone time" but I think it will be much sweeter when He finally grants that in His perfect time. Take care awesome sis and God bless and keep you always.

Charlotte

What precious thoughts, Loren. I believe the Lord has many special blessings in store for you. You are such an inspiration to so many. Thank you for sharing your heart with us. You have a beautiful heart.
Charlotte

Clif

You may remember that Romans 8:28 is one of my favorite Scriptures. Many times in life I have been so upset because of what was happening to me. It really bothered me when people told me that I would look back and see how God worked this out for my good--it made me mad. I didn't want to hear it. But alas, I can look back and now know they were right. We love God and He loves us. It WILL be alright. I have always said, "If you do what is right, it will be alright." And it will. I wish you could have gone on the trip. But for some reason we do not understand now, it was not meant to be. God bless you Loren we love you but most of all God loves you.

Denise

Bless your precious heart, love you dearly.

Lisa

I am so sorry your trip got cancelled. But I love your heart for the Lord. Your quality time with your Husband is coming.:)

Barbie

Oh Loren, I am so sorry. You have been through so much and I am sad you did not get this time together with your husband. But, I am so very thankful that the Lord met you, overwhelmed you with His love and grace. I just know He has a perfect time and place for your husband and you to get away, and I know it will be far better than this weekend could have been. You are such a blessing and treasure to me. Love you girl!

Mevely317

There is a reason, Loren ... you and your hubby may not see it now, but please don't "beat yourself up" over a pity-party. We're all there at one time or another ... I just applaud your courage to pull free from temptation.
Wishing you and your Brian a sweet reunion!

Dayle

Loren, this really touched my heart.

He & Me + 3

Loren you heart is so precious and you have suffered much loss lately. Praying you get that time with your husband

Alleluiabelle

Sweet Friend,

Lord,

I humbly ask that you bless Loren and her DH abundantly in all ways. I ask that you bless them with a divine quality time and place where they can really connect with each other...a time that that will totally fill their hearts desires...a time that you have destined to make happen. They will know Lord that it was all because of you as you are orchestrating every part of it now and your signs will be made clearly known to them. In Jesus precious name I pray. Amen.

I love you Loren,
Alleluiabelle

sarah

I can be really stubborn....trying to push forward when God is trying to tell me to stop, wait, rest. I loved reading your post....cause I can soo relate. Sarah

Ginger~~Enchanting Cottage

I hope that you will be able to have some time alone with your husband soon. I'm truly sorry you were not able to make it. Pray, and ask God to help you plan a new trip without business involved. Ask God to lead you to even a better Bed & Breakfast. Thank-you so much for sharing your heart with us.
Blessings,
Ginger

christy rose

I am so sorry that your trip got cancelled. I can just feel your disappointment. I think that God must have something else up His sleeve for you and your hubby. It must be something bigger and better. That is just the way that He is. :) Can't wait to hear whatever it is. :)

Tamara

I am truly sorry your trip did not go as planned but as you and I know, God has a plan!! Some great quality time is coming for you and your husband and it's all in HIS time! You're a jewel!!

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