Saturday, February 28, 2009


We all laughed and the lady introducing said "No, this is a little boy!" He just looked again at Jantzen and said again in all seriousness. "well....she sure is pretty!" Jantzen just turned his head looking at me across the room and said "And, he is NOT kidding" we have continued to laugh and laugh about Pastor Bob. Well we were at the end of the circle of people and finally there sat Glynna, the lady they made the blanket for. Her head was down and she had no expression but easily showed her frustration. Jantz was introduced to her and they gave her the bag, Jantzen had to help her totally just getting the blanket out was a difficult task. They laid this beautiful blanket across her lap and asked her "Isn't it beautiful?" She said flat out "NO"
Jantz was not in the least offended but just lovingly smoothed it over her legs. Well, then the activity director who was doing all the introducing started to read the cards the kids had made for her. That is when the tears and wave of emotion began to flow. You see, Glynna was a author for childrens books and LOVES children. She was always found in a school "reading to them" and I just experienced such a powerful lesson as I watched all of this play out how Gods grace and how reaping and sowing play out in this life we choose to live. God chose Glynna of all these people to receive this gift. made by the loving hands of children and to hear the words of the children themselves wishing her well and for her to enjoy their labor now. Glynna gave her heart to children and now these children gave theirs to her. That is God, a loving father watching over all of us, whispering, providing, loving and caring for each of His. Jantzen was so grateful for this experience as was I. As I walked out with him, knowing we will return. I just looked at him and said The Favor of the Lord is upon you, in a mighty way, and I am soo blessed to be your mother. He looked at me and said...I didn't come here just for me....I knew you needed to smile mom. The depths of my sons heart is beyond anything I can understand but I know that He has a servants heart, like Davids. I can't wait to see what God has in store!

Friday- I was able to spend the evening with Brian, we went to dinner. I sat and listened about his week. This journey began 2 yrs ago with the possibility that his company would sell and my husband does NOT like change. He has worked for this company over 30yrs. I have literally watch Gods hand and my husbands trust move, grow deeper and wider with each day, month and year. He explained things to me last night about how he knows he has done everything he can do, within the company and also spiritually we have seen some pretty amazing miracles, and both of us know now why the timing has been sooooo long. But to hear my husband say...The realization that this still might not happen and I am ok either way still as I type this just moves me to the core. It is one of the things I learned about in Bible study this week that Beth Moore gave us an exericise to do about fear. fill in the blanks" Well if -------happens then I will------.
there are so many things to which we could write but brians #1 would probably been; If I lose my job then I will be a failure, or I will die. I know men have such a problem with their jobs being their identity but you see that is PART of what has been broken off of Brian. He knows his identity is in Christ, he knows that God is our provider, he knows that we will be ok because we are together and have each other. He knows God will keep matter what.

There are so many other things, seriously that I could type about but these are the highlites to me. I am soo humbled even as I type them out. God is so ....beyond words. truly nothing I can say will suffice. My heart overflows!
Wow I knew this week would fly and it very much did but it was one of those weeks that in my flesh I thought would be slow and honestly hard to make it through but God did amazing and wonderful things each and every day!! His Holy Spirit truly lead me with strength and peace that passed ALL understanding, even in the midst of the enemies attacks on our health, time and thoughts, GOD REIGNED AND WAS OH SO VICTORIOUS! When a person who "knows" the Lord goes throughout their day and just converses with and about their Abba Daddy or Lord it is a natural thing to them but when you have conversation with others who don't "know" Him they think it strange or say to themselves "why do they talk like that?" Well here are just a FEW of the highlites where our God covered me with His wings or Hid me behind His Cross or just gave me peace in the midst of the storm.

Sunday-Jen got sick, fever, throat all the signs of possible flu. We had leadership over here and prayed over her and God poured and washed over her touching her heart, mind, and body. She was back at school by Wed. and felt better by Tues.
Wednesday was youth and also a VERY busy day but each minute the Lord had planned in detail! I picked Jantzen up from school and he asked me to drive across the street to the ALZHEIMERS NURSING HOME, I was finishing up a conversation on the phone and so I just did what he asked and when I finished I asked why we were here. He explained that the blanket that his class had crocheted for a patient here at the facility was finished and a woman had come to receive it for her and that Jantzen wanted to meet her. I honestly did everything I could to keep us from going in and I really can't explain why because our family has a SERIOUS heart for the elderly and adore them but anyway after I came up with every reason why and Jantzen just continued to say "well, we can try" we went in. Immediately to our right, there sat the woman who had come to the school to receive the blanket. She asked me is she could help us and I explained that Jantz was a student who participated in making the blanket for their patient and that he wanted to me her. She was aghast (sp?) and with tear in her eyes she proceeded to explain what we might see as we walked back to meet with some of these people. She explained how we were to "LOVE THEM WHERE THEY WERE. " She told Jantzen that like when he was a baby and I loved him even though he couldn't walk or talk that that's what we were to do. I immediately said to Jantzen, Just like the Lord loves us.....right where we are. So as we continue behind locked/secure door after another we finally come upon a group of elderly people playing ball. (throwing a soft big ball one to another, for exercise) Well she proceeded to announce who Jantzen was and why he was here. She had the gift bag in hand and began introducing Jantzen to each member in the circle, and told Jantz something special about each one of them. "This is Frank, he served in WWII, as frank whispers "tell him I served in France". Then there was Shirley who immediately grabs Jantzen as if to pull herself up with his strength, He says you don't have to get up, She looks him straight in the eye and says "Oh yes, I gotta PEE!!" omg it was hilarious. He continues on meeting these most precious children of God and gets to this sweet, in my best Beth Moore voice possible "I MEAN SWEET, YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT?" man, he is introduced as their "Pastor" His name of Bob. He smiles the MOST precious smile and with all seriousness in him looks at Jantz and says "Well, she is such a pretty little girl

Monday, February 23, 2009

Is it really Monday already!! Wow! I really am READY for Spring Break!!!
Monday-Pork chops, green bean casserole, salad
Tuesday-Pigs in a blanket, mac & cheese
Wednesday- Snacks on your own---YOUTH---
Thursday- Baked chicken, salad, corn on the cob
Friday- Out to eat-anywhere I don't care! :0) or maybe just order in
This is going to be a crazy week, Brian will not be home at all because he is traveling and having business meetings from sun up to sun down this week! Gods grace will carry us each day though!

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Formal 09'

Well first of all, its a funny story! My daughter does NOT like to be in a dress let alone HEELS! So, while we were dress shopping, she of course saw some "clothes" she would like to purchase. So I decided to use this to my advantage.....BRIBERY!! mwahahaha. Jenna my love, if you would like for me to purchase you a new shirt you must allow me to ....paint your toes, your fingernails, and oh ya.....wax your eyebrows! My oh so witty daughter ponders this proposal and simply looks at me and says....."Can I have two shirts?????" So we laughed ourselves through the store finding the "second shirt!" So yesterday was soooo much fun for me having mother/daughter time. Then as we are waxing her eyebrows Jenna decides we should put some more blonde highlights in her hair.....well, I had loaned my foil out to friend but thank goodness for Reynolds Wrap Heavy Duty foil. I cut myself some foil strips and we foiled away. Jenna said she felt like we were playing twister while painting her nails and toes!

The girls looked beautiful and had fun taking pics before hand! They went out to eat and then danced the night away!

Friday, February 20, 2009

Thanks goodness it's Friday! I am soo happy to have a day at HOME. It seems as though I have had to run, work or DO, everyday for the past few weeks so I am very happy to have this day or at least morning FREE! :) Jantz has 2 parties tonite and one is in Tulsa so the running will begin as soon as I pick him up afterschool. *SIGH*
I am going to continue working on my blog today! It is soo much fun and very much a challenge LOL but will take it like I said One day at a time!

As I spent time praying this morning it seemed the list was so long and so heavy. The funeral of Jesse Goering is today and my heart was heavy for his father and family and all the kids who knew him. One of our youth, a precious young woman of God has been so affected by this and carried a burden because she "feels" she did not "Share the Love of Christ" with Jesse before he died but I know this: There are those people that when you are in their presence you are in the presence of our Lord because they are full of His Love and glory and it spills onto all those around them. I lifted her and all of those who are in that funeral today to truly experience God in a powerful way, for some it will be a Hope of Glory, for others, it will be Salvation and Forgiveness and for those who know Christ may it be that we all share the Love and Hope of Christ as He hides us behind his Cross and lets His Glory go forth.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Today was soo much fun with Nicole!!! She is the !!!! Seriously, she gave me lots of great information have to attempt to put it to use!~ My first attempt was my signature! now, I have to admit......JENNA had to find the code for me because I was totally frustrated and got it all figured out and did EVERYTHING but couldn't find the code thingy. So I am excited with this and will have fun playing with the rest one day at a time! Thanks, Nicole you truly are awesome!!! at blogging, encouraging and mostly at friendship... I just love you!

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Today was a really a down day for me. I went to Dr T this morning and told him about the alfafa supplements I had been taking and how I read that alfalfa may be another cause of inflamation. So he tested me for it and sure enough I cannot take it anymore. It definately has played a part in how I have felt for the last 3 weeks. He also found out that MSG is affecting me which is in soooo many foods. He explained to me that I must STOP eating ALL tomatoes products and potato products along with any MSG. Well I must say, it sent me down. Then we went into the emotion part and it really got me. It is so impossible to explain what he does or to even attempt blogging about it so I won't even try. What I can say is that I know I must change my diet AGAIN and have to have a better outlook than I have in the past about it because like Dr T said ...this is the easiest thing that I CAN control and as bad as I have felt these past few weeks, french fries....they just aren't worth it. I know that me being home and not working is playing a role in my emotional state bc I truly am a people person so to be home day upon day is not really a good thing. I keep asking the Lord, do I go to work partime somewhere again? At this point my body doesn't feel good enough to think about that so I just wait to see what the Lord directs.

I really want to learn more about this blogging stuff and make it look nice and not like just a journal so I am still hoping to get with my friend so she can teach me the ropes.

Monday, February 2, 2009

Monday- Hamburger Helper Lasagna with garlic crescent rolls
Tuesday-Pork tenderloin, scalloped potatoes, green beans
Wednesday- make your own salad or sandwich
Thursday- Chicken and rice in the crock pot
Friday- Birthday dinner for my momma!! cake ice cream and all the fixins