Saturday, February 28, 2009


We all laughed and the lady introducing said "No, this is a little boy!" He just looked again at Jantzen and said again in all seriousness. "well....she sure is pretty!" Jantzen just turned his head looking at me across the room and said "And, he is NOT kidding" we have continued to laugh and laugh about Pastor Bob. Well we were at the end of the circle of people and finally there sat Glynna, the lady they made the blanket for. Her head was down and she had no expression but easily showed her frustration. Jantz was introduced to her and they gave her the bag, Jantzen had to help her totally just getting the blanket out was a difficult task. They laid this beautiful blanket across her lap and asked her "Isn't it beautiful?" She said flat out "NO"
Jantz was not in the least offended but just lovingly smoothed it over her legs. Well, then the activity director who was doing all the introducing started to read the cards the kids had made for her. That is when the tears and wave of emotion began to flow. You see, Glynna was a author for childrens books and LOVES children. She was always found in a school "reading to them" and I just experienced such a powerful lesson as I watched all of this play out how Gods grace and how reaping and sowing play out in this life we choose to live. God chose Glynna of all these people to receive this gift. made by the loving hands of children and to hear the words of the children themselves wishing her well and for her to enjoy their labor now. Glynna gave her heart to children and now these children gave theirs to her. That is God, a loving father watching over all of us, whispering, providing, loving and caring for each of His. Jantzen was so grateful for this experience as was I. As I walked out with him, knowing we will return. I just looked at him and said The Favor of the Lord is upon you, in a mighty way, and I am soo blessed to be your mother. He looked at me and said...I didn't come here just for me....I knew you needed to smile mom. The depths of my sons heart is beyond anything I can understand but I know that He has a servants heart, like Davids. I can't wait to see what God has in store!

Friday- I was able to spend the evening with Brian, we went to dinner. I sat and listened about his week. This journey began 2 yrs ago with the possibility that his company would sell and my husband does NOT like change. He has worked for this company over 30yrs. I have literally watch Gods hand and my husbands trust move, grow deeper and wider with each day, month and year. He explained things to me last night about how he knows he has done everything he can do, within the company and also spiritually we have seen some pretty amazing miracles, and both of us know now why the timing has been sooooo long. But to hear my husband say...The realization that this still might not happen and I am ok either way still as I type this just moves me to the core. It is one of the things I learned about in Bible study this week that Beth Moore gave us an exericise to do about fear. fill in the blanks" Well if -------happens then I will------.
there are so many things to which we could write but brians #1 would probably been; If I lose my job then I will be a failure, or I will die. I know men have such a problem with their jobs being their identity but you see that is PART of what has been broken off of Brian. He knows his identity is in Christ, he knows that God is our provider, he knows that we will be ok because we are together and have each other. He knows God will keep matter what.

There are so many other things, seriously that I could type about but these are the highlites to me. I am soo humbled even as I type them out. God is so ....beyond words. truly nothing I can say will suffice. My heart overflows!
Wow I knew this week would fly and it very much did but it was one of those weeks that in my flesh I thought would be slow and honestly hard to make it through but God did amazing and wonderful things each and every day!! His Holy Spirit truly lead me with strength and peace that passed ALL understanding, even in the midst of the enemies attacks on our health, time and thoughts, GOD REIGNED AND WAS OH SO VICTORIOUS! When a person who "knows" the Lord goes throughout their day and just converses with and about their Abba Daddy or Lord it is a natural thing to them but when you have conversation with others who don't "know" Him they think it strange or say to themselves "why do they talk like that?" Well here are just a FEW of the highlites where our God covered me with His wings or Hid me behind His Cross or just gave me peace in the midst of the storm.

Sunday-Jen got sick, fever, throat all the signs of possible flu. We had leadership over here and prayed over her and God poured and washed over her touching her heart, mind, and body. She was back at school by Wed. and felt better by Tues.
Wednesday was youth and also a VERY busy day but each minute the Lord had planned in detail! I picked Jantzen up from school and he asked me to drive across the street to the ALZHEIMERS NURSING HOME, I was finishing up a conversation on the phone and so I just did what he asked and when I finished I asked why we were here. He explained that the blanket that his class had crocheted for a patient here at the facility was finished and a woman had come to receive it for her and that Jantzen wanted to meet her. I honestly did everything I could to keep us from going in and I really can't explain why because our family has a SERIOUS heart for the elderly and adore them but anyway after I came up with every reason why and Jantzen just continued to say "well, we can try" we went in. Immediately to our right, there sat the woman who had come to the school to receive the blanket. She asked me is she could help us and I explained that Jantz was a student who participated in making the blanket for their patient and that he wanted to me her. She was aghast (sp?) and with tear in her eyes she proceeded to explain what we might see as we walked back to meet with some of these people. She explained how we were to "LOVE THEM WHERE THEY WERE. " She told Jantzen that like when he was a baby and I loved him even though he couldn't walk or talk that that's what we were to do. I immediately said to Jantzen, Just like the Lord loves us.....right where we are. So as we continue behind locked/secure door after another we finally come upon a group of elderly people playing ball. (throwing a soft big ball one to another, for exercise) Well she proceeded to announce who Jantzen was and why he was here. She had the gift bag in hand and began introducing Jantzen to each member in the circle, and told Jantz something special about each one of them. "This is Frank, he served in WWII, as frank whispers "tell him I served in France". Then there was Shirley who immediately grabs Jantzen as if to pull herself up with his strength, He says you don't have to get up, She looks him straight in the eye and says "Oh yes, I gotta PEE!!" omg it was hilarious. He continues on meeting these most precious children of God and gets to this sweet, in my best Beth Moore voice possible "I MEAN SWEET, YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT?" man, he is introduced as their "Pastor" His name of Bob. He smiles the MOST precious smile and with all seriousness in him looks at Jantz and says "Well, she is such a pretty little girl