Well, my dad finished his radiation treatments on his brain this past Thursday and won't begin the new treatments for the tumor in his Chest until next week. As I was listening to the Doctor saying he would have this short break until the next treatments begin and then later that day I got to go to work with my dad and he was sharing with his secretary that he planned to work quite a bit next week until his treatments began I felt like this might be the right time to return home for a few days. It would allow me to help out my Dad and stepmom not have to fly both of my kids home and also to get my car back home. I told my husband this was the situation and he said that maybe I should come home and I shared that was what I was thinking but asked him to pray and then we would get together later and see what the Lord spoke to each of us. I didn't want to do anything out of the Lords will and I especially didn't want my emotions leading me at this time. I prayed throughout the day and felt that the Lord was saying to go home but I am big on hearing confirmation! I told my Stepmom was we were considering and she said "I think this makes to the most sense right now" 1st confirmation. Later my brother called and we were able to resolve our issues and he said "I really think you should come home and take a break before dad starts chemo"~ out of the blue hmmmm. confirmation #2?
When I spoke with my husband, he said the same thing and I truly felt peace about my returning. confirmation #3.(my husband and I have learned that when there is a decision to be made we each seek the Lord individually, and listen to HIS answer and come back together, if we both have the same answer then we trust the Lord has given us this unity and we proceed) (I know the Lord can and does use us to help or speak in situations like these but my ultimate confirmation comes from HIM)When I spoke with my dad about it, I could tell he was having a hard time with me leaving but he also shared that he knew I couldn't stay forever and would be very happy for me to return. This was the hardest for me to handle and almost where I allowed my emotions to lead me. God tells us to seek HIM, to pray always and to not lean on our own understanding. While it is very hard for me to leave and be away from my dad for this week, it is also wonderful to hold my grandaughter(she is crawling now too!), see my stepdaughter, spend time with my mom and stepdad and catch up with some friends, and of course be with my Husband. His love, support, prayer covering and overall willingness to be there for me no matter what has drawn us together more than I ever imagined possible. I am so blessed to be his wife!
I would encourage anyone going through a tough season in their life or maybe just needing an answer for something, to seek the LORD, ask for HIS manifest Presence! He longs to be with us, to fill us, to encourage, to speak, to comfort and to pour out wisdom, love, joy unspeakable and yes when we are in the middle of a storm, HE longs to show us HIS mighty Power, Strength and Sovereignty. We must be still, we must seek, we must listen and be willing to HEAR WHAT THE SPIRIT IS SAYING! Open our ears Lord, and our eyes too!
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