Monday, July 6, 2009

Tough Day

Today has proven to be a tough day all the way around.

We met with Oncologist and she was going over Dads treatment options and continued making the statment...."we want to do what will give you the most time" with the options being chemo only, radiation only or doing them together with this option being the hardest on my dad. After agreeing to the most aggressive of the 3, my step-mom asked how much time she thought we were talking about. This question hasn't been asked up to this point and it has been hard to hear and harder to deal with in my heart.

She said most likely 1 to 2 years but probably no more than 3 to 4.

The first thing my Dad says to me in the car afterward was that the time statistics mean nothing to him and that he will be in the 10% that make it longer. My dad has amazed me and his positive, fighting spirit will prove to be something I admire no matter what! He knows this will be difficult, He knows there is no known cure but hopes that will soon change, He knows that each day is a gift. He is fighting and researching, hoping and trusting too.

I am struggling, hurting, but I know the Lord is the ONE in control, He is bigger than any statistic and HE is the Great Physician. He loves and cares for my Dad more than anyone..... I trust in HIM, in HIS WILL, and know HE will carry me, my dad and all of us during the days ahead no matter the outcome. I am so thankful to have this time here with my dad and for now....this is where I will remain.