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Thursday, December 3, 2009

A Heavy Heart

As I type today it is with a VERY heavy heart. I talked to my stepmom and received more of the Truth that I have been asking for and to be honest. It isn't good at all. My Dad isn't doing well and she shared with me that my brother and I need to come to Florida. We have made flight arrangements and will be going on the 10th.(My brother is a Captain on the Fire Department and this is the earliest shift he could find someone to work for him) I do not have a return flight and just want to get there and see how my dad is with my own eyes. Even as I say this, I have to be honest and share that I am also very scared to see him. He has lost a substantial amount of weight and is going days without eating as of this date.

I need your prayers and the Lord knows all the details but I am just asking my prayer warriors to come beside me, my dad and all of my family. One thing is that we have not told my 86 yr old grandma because she hasn't been doing well and feel this will only upset her and cause her health to worsen.

Dad will have a CT Scan on the 21st of December and we will know then IF this chemo medicine is working or not. There is a long time between now and the 21st for a man who has cancer but to many, I know it will fly by. Those waiting for the answer it will be a long time. I just thankyou in advance for your prayers, love and support.

I have MUCH TO DO since I have not really been prepared to be gone for an unlimited number of days. I would ask for Peace and to have the strength to get all of this done since my DH will be leaving this MOnday. He will be gone when I leave and this breaks my heart as well. We have many decisions to make and the LORD knows the answers and we have EARS TO HEAR!

I love and appreciate you all so very much. My posts will be sporadic I am sure but know my heart is with all of you and I love each one of you dearly

Love and Blessings,

30 comments:

Red Writing

I am praying for you and your family, Loren.

christy rose

Loren, My heart is heavy for you and right along with you. I will continue to pray for all of you throughout this time. God will give you strength to face each obstacle that comes before you as you look to Him. I am sorry that this news comes at this time of year when we should only be experiencing great joy.
Praying! Praying! Praying!
Love, Christy

Simply Heather

Loren, I was on my way to the grocery store this morning and talking with The Lord when I suddenly felt a heaviness in my heart for you. Maybe before the news, maybe just after, maybe just at a moment when you needed the support but whenever it was, I know that The Spirit is connecting us and that He will enable you through all of this.

It's not easy to go through and I cannot imagine being far from my mother when she was in her last days here. God will prepare you for that first visit with your dad.

I think you all should tell your grandmother, she may be much stronger than all of you think and if this is his mother - it may hurt her terribly if something sudden happens without her knowledge. You all wouldn't want to live with that afterward either. Sometimes the truth in a situation does hurt, cause pain and seem overwhelming to give but as for you, even, it was needed.

I have no doubt that you'll be pressed on my heart throughout these days to come.

Love, blessings and a warm hug of support to you, sister.

~Heather

Andrea

I am continuing to storm the heavens on behalf of you, your dad and your entire family. I love you!
andrea

Jennifer

Oh my dear Loren... I am so sad to read this post! I wish there were something I could do to help you. But know that Heydon and I are praying for your dad, for you and for your entire family. I pray that you will all feel God beside you each and every moment.
Love you,
Jennifer

Warren Baldwin

What words are there? I don't know, except I am so sorry and will be offering prayer.

Barbie

Oh Loren, I am so very sorry. I am continuing to storm the gates of heaven on your dad's behalf. Praying for continued peace and strength for your family.

Edie

Oh Loren I'm praying with you now at this very moment. My heart goes out to you and your family. I am praying for your dad's health and his salvation.

Much love and hugs to you my friend.

The Not So Perfect Housewife

Oh dear sweet Loren. My heart is breaking for you. But I will be praying. Praying that God shows you the strength that you already have within you to handle this visit.
I pray that your travel will be safe and your time with your father blessed.
I don't know where in FL you are going, but if your close to Daytona or Orlando and need someone to have coffee with.. just shoot me an email :-)

RCUBEs

Sister Loren, I've been feeling heavy these past days but reading what you posted made me feel your pain, too. Just know that you are in my prayers and I'm praying that it will be a very meaningful time you will have with your father and your brother and the rest of the family. Take good care of yourself. And try to enjoy that precious, precious time with your dad. God bless you always and may you all be covered with His love and comfort...Love you sister Loren.

Philippians 4:6,7- "Do not worry about anything;instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. If you do this, you will experience God's peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.

Sassy Granny ...

Oh dear sister, this is not the sort of summons one relishes. I know how concerning it must be. May the Lord attend your every step, your every breath, your every heartbeat ... and may your peace flourish.

Blessings as you go; and as you return,
Kathleen

Sandi@ My Yellow Door

Dear Loren,
I am so sorry to hear about your Dad. How heavy your heart must be. I will lift you, your father, your grandmother, your entire family up in prayer. I pray God will touch each of you in a special way and give you comfort.

Blessings,
Sandi

elizabeth

I pray for your time with your dad to be a very healing time in which you are greatly used by God to minister to him. I pray that any unfinished relational business will be taken care of. I pray for a very real Presence of God with you, in you, through you. In Jesus' Name. Amen

Clif

You and your family are in my heart and my prayers. It makes me very sad to read your blog today because I am rejoicing with those that rejoice and weeping with those who weep. Even while you are away I will come to your blog to see if there are updates. ....Thanks for dropping by today. You, even when you are sad, are a bright ray of light to me. Thank you so much for the news about Kat. I told Charlotte she must be out of town or ill. I am sending her a copy of Regret-Free Living she had expressed interest in. I have her mailing address but I misplaced her email address. I didn't know she was ill so I left a note on her blog telling her about the book and hoping she would see it.She will be in our prayers!!

Debbie

Oh Loren I am soo sorry to hear about this. I promise you I will lift you and your whole family in prayer every day. I pray as well that this will just be a sweet time between you and your dad and that you will be able to let the cares of everything else going on not concern you. Know He is with you every step of the way, and that we are all here on our knees wherever we are as well. Much love to you, Debbie

LisaShaw

My arms of prayer are wrapped around you Loren and your entire family especially your Daddy.

I love you and my heart and love is with you and you know my prayers are going forth.

Debbie

Loren, I have been offline for the last few days but Edie alerted me to this news. I'm praying for your dad right now. And know that I'll be praying for you and your family. What part of Florida does he live? You know I used to live in the Tampa/St. Pete area and worked as an ICU nurse there for about 7 years.

Loren, just know that your sisters in Christ are praying.

Love you,
Debbie

Saleslady371

Now I know why Doug was on my heart today. I am praying with you for him, your stepmom and your family. And for you I pray peace that Jesus gives; it is beyond understanding. Love you, sweet sister. Give us updates.

From the Heart

I have had the prayer button on my blog since Edie made it and have been praying for your lovd one. I just came from Edie's with the info that you are going to see you Dad. You all will be in my prayers. With God anything is possible.
AliceE.

Irritable Mother

Let's pray.

Father in heaven, we praise You because You are worthy of praise. We praise You because You never change. Though our circumstances change and we do not know what to expect tomorrow, You are always the same - always faithful - and we can trust You.
God, You know exactly what's going on in Loren's dad. You know everything she doesn't. You see what she cannot. And I pray You would comfort her with the understanding that You are God - completely in control of this circumstance.
Father, as Loren leaves for this trip I am asking you to show her Your power - as You work out the details, as You calm her heart, as You cover her with Your love. Lord, please hold her closely and speak tenderly to her heart.
And, yes, Lord! I pray for her father's salvation. Would You speak clearly to him in this moment and call him to Yourself?
Ah, Lord, glorify Yourself through this storm!
I'm asking it in the wonderful, powerful, beautiful, matchless Name of JESUS.
Amen and amen!


May the peace of Christ rest upon you today, Loren.

Much love,
Karen

Tracy

Hi Loren,
I came by way of Edie's blog. I'm so sorry to hear this about your Dad. Please know he and your entire family will be in my prayers both now and in the coming days.

Steph T.

I am so sorry Loren. I will be praying for you as you make all these decisions and get prepared to leave. I am praying for your dad and that healing will come quick for him in all ways! You take care and if there is anything we can do to help back here in Owasso you know we are just a call away!
Loveya
Steph

Alleluiabelle

Sweet One,

Oh how my heart weighs heavily within me as I read this posting. Soak in every precious moment you have with your dad dear friend and know that I am kneeling beside you with my arms wrapped around you and your family in deep fevent prayer for him, his salvation and for God's will in all of this. We may not be physically visible to you, but all of us that have come to know you through the blogging world are with you in mind, heart and soul and we are kneeling with you before our Heavenly Father and lifting your dad up to the highest of heavenlies to His Throne Room of Grace. May His heavenly presence, love, peace, tranquility, tender mercies, joy and His multitudes of angels be felt so strongly all around you, your dad and your entire family for His will shall be done in all things. Rest in that my dear sweet Loren. Rest in that.

I love you sweet one and will be checking in for updates.

{{{{Many Hugs & Kisses}}}},
Alleluiabelle

Just Be Real

Loren, I am lifting your family members up in prayer, as you also for strength. Blessings dear one...

Denise

Sweetie, I love you, wish I could give you a huge hug right now. My prayers are increasing for you, and your dear dad. Email me anytime, my email address is shortybear63@bellsouth.net

Tamara

Loren, my dear sweet friend!! I am praying for you and uplifting you and your family constantly. Having to go through this isn't easy. Keep your chin up. The good Lord above knows what's best for us all! I pray for peace within your family. Love ya!

COUNTRY MOM

Loren, I was so sad to hear this update about your Dad not doing well. I am Praying for this precious time between you and your Dad. I Pray that you get to talk with him about everything that is on your mind. Praying for him to know God and have Peace and Comfort. I love you, I will be thinking about you. Text me if you feel up to it. Love you... Many, Many Prayers. Audrey

Shirley

Loren, I am so sorry for your pain, we will be praying for you and your family.Remember God answers prayer! Isn't it amazing that God loves His children so much that He is always just a breath away. Be strong in the Lord!

E @ Scottsville

OH Loren, I'm so sorry to hear it. I will be praying for you and your brother and parents. I can only imagine how you must feel... but yes that fear of seeing with your own eyes and having it all become REALITY is so scary.

Hang in there, my friend. God DOES know what He's doing even when we can't understand it.

Heart2Heart

Loren,

I just read this today and you must have written it before we talked, prayed, cried and prayed again. I begged God last night to heal me so I can be with you during this time. If I was 100%, I'd already be heading your way.

My heart is going out to you and your dad. Your dad, for salvation, strength, and an open heart to everything you tell him. I pray that you will tell your grandma, they have been through more than enough and can handle more than we think. Finally I pray for you, sweet sister of mine, that God has given me a special love for, that God would wrap those Fatherly arms around you, comfort you as you leave one family to visit your father, minister to you when you are feeling down, encourage you when you need it the most, but most of all to allow you shine where I think it's your calling for your dad and his heart. May he be willing to move closer to you, so this way he will have more love and support for him, and for Brian and the kids that they will support you while you are gone.

I will be calling as often as I can, and who knows what God has in store for you this Christmas!

Love and Hugs ~ Kat

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