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Wednesday, June 24, 2009

for today, June 24, 2009




For Today...

Outside my window... New surroundings here in Florida. My dads house sits on 50 acres. He has 2 horses, a cool red barn and so many trees. Seeing gecko's run everywhere and Frogs~ I am scared to death of Frogs! (thanks to my brother)

I am thinking... How grateful I am to be here, how much my children have love and supported me and my Dad...doing whatever is necessary....with total and complete love! I am so very proud of them!


I am thankful for... this time with my dad, just to hold his hand, make him tea, each day is precious. Also for all of those who are praying for him right now, Thankyou isn't even enough! For my husband who took time to drive to Missouri to spend time with my Nana because the Lord laid it upon his heart to do so! She and my Dad were sooo very appreciative! He is the most precious husband, more than I could have ever asked or dreamed of! My oldest daughter Krista, who lovingly checks on us everyday without fail....I love you and cherish you!

From the kitchen...This is definately an area the Lord has shown me to serve. The dr. told my dad he needs to keep his weight up....he lost 10 lbs. because upon learning his diagnosis he immediately started eating only fruits and veggies. So the Dr. said he needed to fatten up. My stepmom does not enjoy cooking so this is where I can definately help :) My husband is the much better cook in our home so although it is not as good as his I am doing my best and sitting down each night with my Dad and stepmom as a family is such a gift!

I am wearing... jean shorts, turqoise shirt with my betty jane crocs

I am reading... The Word and thats about all I can do right now. I must stand on it and let it be my lamp & my hope.


I am hoping... My dad can get some relief in his coughing. Today was really bad. He experienced pain for the first time today and is really concerned how he will handle this for 5 more weeks. This is when he will begin chemo and radiation on the chest tumor, for now tomorrow begins the brain radiation

I am creating... memories


I am praying... for a miracle! for a complete and total healing

Around the house... I am seeing my children and I be such a team, working together in total love and willing to see and ask the Lord daily....what today Lord can we do, give us ears and eyes to see and hear and hearts that would obey you!

One of my favorite things... ok this is so funny! My dad moved away the day after I graduated from highschool back in the 80's. So to say I know the little things that he does would not be true but today I learned a few things we are exactly alike in and it just brings joy to my soul.....we both love "GRAPE" jelly. We love our towels with alot of Downy fabric softener! :) We are both computer and techno geeks although he knows everything about them and I know nothing...just enough to get me by! We are CHIP AND SALSA fanatics!!! This I knew but cherish even more when we share it together!

A few plans for the rest of the week... radiation starts tomorrow and maybe we will be able to go to the movie....Transformers at the IMAX if Dad feels like it!

Here is a picture thought I am sharing with you...These photos were taken by my daughter! She wants to be a photographer someday and I am so proud of her and her gift!







Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Intercessory Prayer

He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." Matthew 17:20

I am a daughter of the King. I have the gift of Faith. I always have, and truly I know and understand it is a gift. I grow in my Faith every day but the Lord is the Author and Finisher of it. The Word says;

Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

Today and everyday we must fix our eyes on Jesus....This is the only way I survived this day. Today my dad had an appt. for an MRI of his brain. We were told they expected to find nothing and that this was a "routine" thing before they began radiation. We were on the road by 6:30am and at Mayo by 7. One thing I noticed at the Mayo clinic is the atmosphere. Sooo many sick people yet the atmosphere is unlike a Hospital...where you can literally feel the heaviness. But at the Mayo, as I looked into the eyes of people... some sick, some not, I see determination, hope and in others although you can tell they are very sick they still smile. As we went onto the radiation appt. where we thought we were going to be receiving the treatment schedule, we were greeted by the physicians assistant and she informed us she had the MRI results and this would prove to be where everything we thought, believed, and/or even hoped changed. We were told that my dads cancer is now at a Stage 4, it has spread into his brain and that is where they would now be focusing on for the radiation. This Dr. explained to us that it is too toxic to do radiation on both the chest tumor and now his brain. My dad was very upset, understandably so. He wants his chest tumor to be taken care of first and foremost and feels if left untreated for another 3 weeks(length of brain radiation) that it will continue to grow and spread and this also leaves his continual cough that is getting worse with each day. He doesn't sleep well bc of this cough and he is soooo conscious of it that while talking on the phone to some people he will continue to push the mute button so "they are not bothered" My dad is precious and even apologized to my stepmom and I for "putting" us through this. Ok, honestly this broke my heart ....but this is my dad. He would protect me and our family at his expense for anything.

I would just like to take this opportunity and thank each of you for your encouraging words, your prayers and thoughts during this time for my dad and myself.
My dad has always been an extremely private man and has opened up a Facebook to be in touch with my brother and I and other family members and friends. He has used this as an outlet to share his feelings and for those of you who know about the "Notes" option, he has written a couple and this is one I would like to share and let you see into the heart of the man you are praying for: I covet each prayer and see how his knowledge of sooo many praying for Him is literally carrying him through the hardest thing in his life. Thankyou friends I love and appreciate you all and am continually interceding myself. I know that my being here was ordered and I am equipped for Such a Time as this!


"Intercessory Prayer
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Friday, June 19, 2009 at 11:56pm
This week I found out that the mass in my chest is malignant. Honestly, I wasn’t too surprised. As I said before, I felt like every doctor I talked to acted as if the growth was malignant. Some wouldn’t look me in the eyes and others had a tone in their voice that intimated there was no way it was benign. Although this week’s news was not good, I feel better just knowing what I was dealing with.

Now the question is: “What, if anything, can the doctors and medicine do about it?” Along those lines, I saw a cardio-thoracic surgeon today and he said he could not surgically remove the growth in its current state. He did have a bit of good news. He said that if chemotherapy and radiation are successful and if they reduce the mass; he will take another look at the surgical option – maybe 10 – 16 weeks from now.

Then, this coming Monday, I have a consultation with an oncologist who should cover the various treatment options, including chemotherapy, radiation, and others that may be available

In today’s world, where science seems to be gaining a stronger hold on our lives and where it is exposing some previous beliefs as falsities, I am uncomfortable putting my total dependence upon the doctors and medicine. If they were all I had. I would be very concerned.

There are many things that happen in this world I cannot explain. Some are miracles and some follow a more rationale path. I have seen both be strongly influenced by prayer. What has surprised and humbled me with my disease is the number of people who request to be intercessors or who want to ask their congregation or others to provide intercessory prayers.

I never thought much about intercessory prayer. Oh, when I was young and went to church, there was always a point in the service where the priest or preacher would go over a list of names of people who were sick or who needed some help in their lives. I would join the rest of the congregation in taking a few moments to think of them and asked God to help them. That was usually the end of it for me.

And there were times when people I loved or admired got sick and I wanted God to make them OK. I’d become an intercessor (back then, I didn’t know the meaning of the term) and asked God to heal them or when I really cared for them, I’d ask God to give me their disease and let them be whole. Today, when I think of the arrogance of that mentality, I can only smile. Looking back at what I was requesting, Garth Brooks’ song: “Thank God for unanswered prayers” comes to mind.

Now that I have this problem, intercessory prayer has a different meaning for me. I want all of the help I can get and I welcome every person or group who has expressed an interest in interceding. I have been very humbled by the number of people who have shown a genuine interest in including me in their prayers. I am surprised because I thought most people had more important things to do.

I am most humbled by the people who are involved. I list a few of them here (without names). There are some people in this list that I think are really gifted at intercession. I’ve seen them work. They have a passion for the needs of others and they have the ability to take those needs to God in a meaningful way.
• First, there is my daughter and my son-in-law. If I were to define a Christian, I would hold them up as examples. I’ve seen their prayers control the weather on a Halloween night and I have seen them intercede with prayer in peoples’ lives and make a huge difference.
• I work with a woman who I consider to be a “black belt” intercessor. I definitely want her on my side. She is one who has a big heart and a passion for the needs of others.
• Then there is my wife’s family. This family is the product of ten off-spring of a small-town Lutheran minister and all of their off-spring - probably over 300 strong. The thing I love about this group is the sense of “family” that they have. They constantly communicate and help one another – no matter where they live. You can tell how much they care about one another. When I first learned about my illness, the word went out to the entire family and we started receiving calls from all over the country. They are among the black-belt group too.
• I was very humbled to learn about three others who are interceding. First, I learned that the grandfather of a co-worker was including me in his prayers. He (the grandfather) is 95 and a former preacher. He’s brought about a number of miracles in his life. And then there are the two young daughters of our Chief Legal Counsel. I’ve never met the girls, but I think God really listens to children.
• The other day, I learned that a co-worker told his parents about my needs and they interceded. His parents live in Jerusalem and they took my name and health problem to the Western Wall. That’s powerful stuff!
• I heard from many of my high school classmates – almost as soon as I learned I had the mass. They all asked to intercede and one high school friend is asking his church congregation to intercede. They are 2000 strong.
• While I’m not a Mormon, one of my brother-in-laws lives in Provo and took my name to the temple in Salt Lake City. That’s as big as the Western Wall. His twin brother is interceding too. I also have a few Mormon friends in Jacksonville and they are involved.

This amazes me! I am a small-town boy from Southwest Missouri (pronounced “mi zur eh”) and I have worked in the background most of my life. I am awed by the fact that this many people are willing to help. I thank each and everyone who has or will intercede.

While I want to beat this thing, I know I cannot do it on my own. The doctors, the advances in medicine, and all of the intercessors are my best chance.


Doug Woods"

I have continually surrendered my fears, my what-ifs, and my anger to the Lord. I trust He is in Control and His timing is Perfect. I am asking that I decrease and He increase in me so that His Peace that He promises will flow from me to my dad. My faith will not be shaken.....No matter what the Dr's say! Bless each of you for interceding! Here is my precious daddy



Monday, June 22, 2009

motivate me mondays

Dana is doing such a great job with her new venture of hosting Motivate Me Mondays! Thanks Dana, you shared a wonderful story and challenged us to share how Fear might have kept us from doing something that the Lord was prompting us to do!

As I read Dana's post I immediately remembered the time when our family was on vacation and we were at the beach in Florida enjoying a wonderful family filled day. We were walking along and saw a gentleman from far off. It didn't take getting up close to him to see that he hadn't shaven or even changed clothes for a very long time! I looked at my husband and we looked at each other and it was clear the Holy Spirit had spoken something as well to my husband. We talked about this gentleman and knew we were suppose to purchase him a meal! We were just about to eat lunch ourselves but some how this no longer seemed important. We purchased him a hamburger and fries and together the four of us walked the distance to this man. As we were walking we prayed and our kids who were younger then continued asking why we were giving a stranger this meal? We explained how the Lord had so clearly impressed on both of us to Feed this man. We let our children hand him this hamburger and said "May God Bless You" This man looked up at our family with such humility and said "Thankyou, I haven't eaten in days!"

Sometimes the Lord will drop us an idea.....make a call to this person, send a note of encouragement to so and so, make dinner for a single mom to help out, spend time with a elderly person at a nursing him or home care facility. We are all so busy doing our own things, and yes, sometimes, fear does keep us from "obeying" and serving the Lord through loving or helping others. When we don't act on those promptings it is us who loses out on the blessing for it is ALWAYS true. It is far better to give than to receive!

Lord, May we have ears to Hear and eyes to See and a heart that will Obey!



Our Journey to my Dad

Wow What a Weekend! We received a phone call from my Dad on Friday to see the Mayo Clinic Surgeon in Jacksonville. He was told he was NOT eligible for Surgery due to the size and location of the tumor. I have to be honest, I was devastated for him and my family. I realized we all (my brother, myself, my stepmom and nana) had really counted on him being able to have this surgery....remove the lung with the tumor and begin chemo and just plain be healed of this cancer. My dad on the other hand was very positive and not surprised at all with the news. Now, don't get me wrong it wasn't what he wanted to hear it's just that he expected this. He also informed me that they would have an appt. with an oncologist on Monday morning.

That evening my husband and I were discussing all of this and I just really felt like I needed to go to Florida. We have a family meeting and asked the kids if they would like to go with me and if so, what were their concerns and/or fears. After putting all of those things to rest ...it was unanimous. We all were going! Halleluah! I REALLY wanted the kids to go but didn't want to force them! We packed our bags Friday night and I did my mom and DH's hair on Saturday since I will most likely be gone for a couple of months and we were on the road by 3! It was a tearful goodbye for all for so many reasons but knew Gods hand was on and with all of us and we were doing EXACTLY what we were suppose to be doing. We had some friends come over on Saturday and make a list of Snacks for the road and OMG they loaded us up! What a blessing! We stopped in Tupelo on Saturday night and made it to St Augustine Sunday night about 10 pm. just in time for Fathers Day to be ending but hey, we made it!!

We had some fun times in the car:

We saw this right away and KNEW God was saying: I am with you!



Me and my girl :)


How many pieces of bubblegum can you chew??? heehee


My son blew a REALLY big bubble.....landed on his head and hair!


Our final hours in the car.....yep she is soooo silly!


Sooooo Glad to be here and spend time with my dad doing whatever it is that He needs
Thankyou each and everyone for interceding I will share with you tomorrow a note from him.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

An Award and a Win



I can't even begin to share how much I have enjoyed this bloggy world. I have won contests, giveaways, plus, gleened wisdom and Insight from sooo many! But I have found some of the Most PRECIOUS friendships and Prayer Warriors! If you would have sat me down a few mongths ago and said "Loren, start a blog ~ seriously, you will have new friends that will teach you every day about the Lord, being a parent. They will make you laugh with their posts, dig deep and ask some serious questions of yourself, and yet they will cover you in prayer and be a treasure to you." I don't think I would have believed you. But....It is true! These relationships are truly a Gift from the Lord at a time in my life, that only He knew how much they would mean to me! One of these precious friendships is from Mary @ PILEofSMILES. Ohhhhh, how I love Mary! Upon arriving at her blog you instantly see her sweet face and for me I KNEW I had a friend. She LOVES the LORD like I do and always points me to HIM and HIS WORD! She is a doer of the Word, a mentor and loves, comforts and prays for all those she meets in her blog! Mary blessed me with this LOVE YA Award. Thankyou Mary! I am honored to be your friend!! Now, It is my turn to pass this on :)

Rules of this award are:


The "Love Ya" Award states: These blogs are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give more attention to these writers. Deliver this award to other bloggers who must choose to pass it on and include this cleverly-written text into the body of their award!

Nicole at Taulman Times, she is my friend and the one who introduced me to blogging. She is one of the most honest, transparent people I know. She inspires so many and the best is yet to come :)

Lori at Girly Muse, she is a beautiful writer, mother and will inspire you to see the Lord in ALL things!

Jennifer at Studio JRU. I met her through a blog contest and won her beautiful faith inspired art and gained a Friend! She is such a gifted artist so visit her Artfire Studio too!

Stephanie at stephtmomof3. Steph is a bloggy friend and a personal one. We have known each other for a long time. She loves Jesus, her family and will always bring a smile to your face and heart!

Kim at Homesteaders Heart. Oh how this girl makes me laugh! EVERYDAY! She is so funny and has a heart as big as the Florida Sunshine!

and last but certainly not LEAST, is my friend Clif at Musings of a Minister. He is an independent book reader, a lover of the LORD, and will make you laugh on days, look within at times, and even cry every once in a while!

Please go visit my friends, they are all precious to me and more precious to our Father! Friendship is a Gift from above....treasure each and everyone!


My win!!!! I entered a book giveaway at Clif's Musings of a Minister and won! This book is called Jantsens Gift by Pam Cope. It immediately caught my eye because my sons name if Jantzen. Pam was a hairstylist, so am (or was) I! I am looking forward to reading this book! It is a deeply moving account of loss and recovery. It is Pam's story of losing her 15 yr old son and turning that pain into glory for the Lord and helping children and making a difference in the world!

Thankyou Clif!!





Tuesday, June 16, 2009

June 16, 2009




For Today...

Outside my window... The Sun is Shining Bright and Beautiful but my heart is heavy

I am thinking... about my Dad. It was confirmed that he has Lung Cancer. My quiet time in the Word yesterday was in Psalm 23. I felt the Holy Spirit with me and somehow knew this is what I would hear.


I am thankful for... The Strength, Love, and comfort from the Lord


I am wearing... Shorts and a tank top

I am reading... 1 Samuel, Psalms, "Leota's Garden" by Francine Rivers, &
"That's My Son" by Rick Johnson

I am hoping... they will be able to operate on my dad. At this point that is "if-y" because of the location of the tumor, BUT~ God can do ANYTHING. He finds out Friday.


I am praying... for my Dad, my Nana, who is alone and dealing with all of this, Lori and family, Heydon and Jennifer,and Mary my sweet sweet friend! Another Bloggy friend whose husband is also having serious health issues too.

Around the house... a Peace that Passes all Understanding

One of my favorite things... at dusk, watching the Lightning bugs dance across my yard, the beautiful family of Deer that come to graze in our back yard, spending time with my kids and Rylee, my sweet grand-daughter. The love and support my husband pours into me during this difficult time and seeing Gods hand so powerfully on my family right now

A few plans for the rest of the week... Jantzen finishes cooking school this week, My husband and I are taking a cooking class together on Thursday ~ yum ~ (wings, brats, shrimp dip)

Here is a picture thought I am sharing with you...

ME AND MY SWEET DADDY


Monday, June 15, 2009

Family Meetings




This is the first Motivate Me Monday with Composing Hallelujahs and I am so excited for Dana to be the new Vessel for this wonderful Post!

I would like to share with you the idea of Family Meetings. Years ago we began seeing a Life Coach. She really taught us (our family) how we are a TEAM! Her company name is Creative Teambuilders and she works with families, corporate teams etc. She introduced us to Family Meetings.

Each week (Same day every week) we meet together with our calendars (in whatever form that means~phone, dayplanner etc) and we share our events with one another inputing them into our schedules. We also plan menus ~ each person chooses a meal they would like to have and it works great! My favorite part of the meeting is when we share prayer needs with one another or when we share what the Lord has done or said to us that particular week. Sometimes, we will have our family bible study or study a book together and love the questions that arise and/or that are shared. We also play games that will bring out questions from the kids....The Ungame, great board game that initiates emotions and questions for all players. This can be found at any local Christian Bookstore. Cardversation, 104 Questions for Youth to deal with ~ these cards are great for kids of all ages and also have it clear which are for older youth and which are for younger kids. These also can be found at any Christian bookstore. We also play a game called "Empty the Bucket" this uses 4 words ~ MAD, SAD, GLAD AND AFRAID, WOW! This one is really good and the Lord works powerfully here! Talking to your kids is so very important! Keeping dialogue open and asking purposeful questions and opening the door to their hearts and minds is key these days! Reminding them that you are their biggest cheerleader and their safe place along with teaching them the ways of the Lord brings peace and security.

How about you~ What do you share at your family meetings?



Sunday, June 14, 2009

Spiritual Sundays




12 Honor your father and mother so that you'll live a long time in the land that God, your God, is giving you. Exodus 20:12

This is the 5th commandment. It is also the only commandment with a promise.
So that we may live long in the land the Lord gives us.


In Dennis Rainey's book "The Best Gift You can ever give your Parents" he points out this in regards to this commandment:

"Look carefully at the commandment again: Whom did God command us to honor? Only perfect parents? Only Christian parents? Parents who are spiritually mature and insightful? Only those who never made major mistakes rearing us?

No, God commands us to honor our parents regardless of their performance, behavior or dysfunction. Why? Because honoring parents demands that we live by faith in God."

This is a wonderful book for all people, believers and/or non-believers. A friend of mine was asking me how my dad was doing and then told me she had something for me. It was this book. I devoured it and am so looking forward to writing the tribute to my parents. I just wanted to share this on Spiritual Sundays and for anyone who would be interested in honoring their parents and obeying the Lord. This is just a tool that will shed new light on the wonderful commandment.

For other stories please go here and thankyou Charlotte and Ginger for this wonderful blog!



Friday, June 12, 2009

TGIF




My mom showed me this: Enjoy :) Have a Fabulous Friday. Go see Kim for more Friday Funnies




Thursday, June 11, 2009

Give Thanks



Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good;
his love endures forever

I see alot of posts with catchy phrases according to the day of the week;

Menu Plan Monday
Motivate Me Monday
Tasteful Tuesday
Friday Funnies :)
Spiritual Sunday


I love them all and have done most but this particular one I hadn't seen so I thought I would join in on the fun!


** My family operating in the Gifts and Callings that God has for each of us!
My daughter has a prophetic gift. I love watching her share that gift with others and when she shares something the Lord has given her with someone it truly blesses all involved!

** My dad. He is so strong and I see God moving in His life so powerfully!! My dad's heart is opening to so many people around him and for this I will forever be grateful!

** My husband and his new job. It literally took 2 yrs for the sale of my husbands company to take place and when it did, it was soo fast! He learned so much during those 2 yrs and we continually asked the Lord during that time, "Please show us all that you want us to know/understand for everyday life and spiritually speaking." My husband was the general manager of the previous company. Now with the new company, his title remains the same, but he is able to operate as a true GM and has such a heart for these people that he has worked with for 30+yrs. He is flourishing and we both know THIS truly is a gift from the Lord!

What are you thankful for today? Is it your husband? Have you told him lately how much you appreciate him? What about your parents? Do they know how grateful you are for all they have done, taught, shared or sacrificed? Your friends, kids, coworkers, maybe even the convenience store clerk that you see everyday. Do they know how thankful you are for them? If not, give them thanks today! Share your heart with the Lord for it is true...He IS GOOD, and His love endures forever!